SadNeSs..

all i asked was to spend new year’s wit me. n he started yelling at me. i have no hope already. im so hurt and feel like crying. im not secured at all, everytime he wants to break up. i wanna go home. i have nothing left here. he just doesn’t love me anymore, he jus taking me for granted. scream!!! scream!! scream!! like i have no feelings!!! why me?? he complains that his family dun care and they dont call him asking him to come back! but i do, everytime i do. so for what i want to care and love him!! not that im happy here! he knows it so well…wats a bf when u cant cry and tell ya deepest feelings!! all he cares is himself! all i would have love to hear is, im sorry i would love to spend new year’s wit you but the circumstances dont allow me, i will have so many new year’s wit you..cant he say that??? will he die??? he just doesnt know how to handle me at all!!! he so used to screaming and yeling now that he dont realise im frightened of him!!! im not bein me!!! i dont know wat to do anymore?? wish god could talk to me…maybe this is not worth it at all..maybe this is jus a passing cloud…maybe he doesnt love me at all!!! HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!