December 2008

i dont wanna leave…i wanna be in ya arms…i wanna spend every sec wit you cuz wat if i dun live for long?? wat if i die n not be able to spend my lifetime wit you…im scared love…things are so beautiful…

thanks for bein there ALWAYS!!! ya like my only family here…ya my mum, when i do something stupid, your my dad when im really down n need someone to tal too, your my sisters when i just want to sit and talk about nothin at all, ya like my friends when you pull me up when i need a shoulder to cry on…you are all this and more so how do u want me to go to some unknown place and live???

i cant believe december is here…im not gonna feel complete nemore…i wont have someone to walk in my room door and give me that smile that makes my day..im wont have someone to wake up in the morning and give me a kiss, i wont have someone to be there when im sick and need some love, i wont be able to fight wit you and get you all stressed hehehhe, i wont have someone to go to the bars with, i wont have someone to tell me what’s wrong and right, i wont have someone to listen to my stories, i wont have smeone to cook and clean for,i wont have someone to pick me to work and back (i know u do it for me) i jus wont have YOU by my side…and it sux big time love!!! shit i dont wanna leave!!!! ill be LOST without you ok…the thot of not bein here wit you kills me…i never even fell like this when i left msia, i swear!!!

i pray and pray that the time will fly sooooo fast and then ill be able to be wit you, smell you, hug you and lie on ya chest till the wee hours in the morning…love im goin to miss u sooooo much….we have been thru the worst and best times in a relationship and i want this to go on and on…life without you will never be d same again…im sorry cuz i might be cryin evday im wit you especially these few days…cuz im not gonna have u beside for long!!!

remember this, i love you wit all my heart…i might be a pain but deep down i can never find someone like you…you mean d world to me n u shuld know that…i say nasty things when im angry but i never mean it cuz ya like an angel sent from above just to be with me and make my life a more heavenly place to live in!!! i thank you for every little thing you have done to make me a better person and the things you do to make me smile…i owe u my life for all this…im sure my parents know im fine because of you…i know through my dad’s talking he is proud of who i ahve met!!

i love you wit all my heart…