CraPPIN

well im supposed to read story online on this book, Burned Alive..but i jus feel like updating my blog..cuz im sure ppl will be wondering how are things wit me n my man things have been ok, well probably cuz i have been keeping my mouth shut hahaha..n we both have been bz wit school work n all..its the weekend today..we went to the bars yesterday, it was fun…i didn’t feel ryte cuz i told jerry that friday nite was his nite wit frens! but then, i gonna leave in 2 months n we were not going to the bar on sat…so he said ok lorr…

im scared, i dunno wats gonna happen when i leave..can we do this long distance relationship?? he is so practical and i dun think he will eva move wit me there..even for xmas n new year i wanted to spend it wit him but he was like, u noe we live far from each other ryte? so can u see the difference, i would do nethin to be wit him but its the other way around for him…as long we are together, distance doesn’t matter…i can take long distance but there shuld be sum form of emotions…i mean i think the love we have can survive the distance but i pray he knows that i need a lot of attetion..sumtimes im even scared to tell him i wanna stay wit him…i know im his gf but he alwiz has sumthin to do n he always say that the world doesn’t revolve around us! i know la but it makes me think that he dun like spending ti me wit me…i can be so sappy, tat i jus feel lying like wit him the whole day, go grocery shopping, cook dinner together, study, cuddle, talk till the wee hours of the morning haizzz….well for him tis is all fairytale life!!!

i wonder if we get married how is he gonna be? i mean even now he cant take me bein around for long hours, wat about marriage??? hmmm hope we will come up wit sumthin…if u ask me now, i wud love to stay in wit him but i dun think he is ready for tat kind of commitment…he needs his space, freedom and so on…yup, very different from me hahahha…but i guess these are all minor things tat people will evntually have to learn..but he sayang sayng la when he feels like it hahaha…but i still miss d old him la..when he was all over me, so much emotions running thru him now i feel he sumtimes like wall ny haizzz…but i love him la…

k k  i better stop crappin hahahha…jus so comfortable, lying on my bed, my lappie on my tummy n listening to love songs hehehe…sooo emo ryte me!! well that’s d real me but at times my ego can jus overpower all this!!! i need to get ready for d hse parte dy…ciow!!