Wichita

    Before the journey began…

I jus got back from Wichita today morning at 5am!! It was an awesome ride down for 13 hours. It was a sudden plan. My friend told me that he was going to Wichita for a conference. I didn’t mind following though i did not know what the conference was all about. All i knew was, it was a about an internship during the summer on book selling. I just took this opportunity to visit a new state.

When i got there on Friday night, we were to stay in a hotel and get up at 8 am the next day. So i did and was really excited. The place was beautiful and there were many Asian stores around. The conference was held in Wichita University. So i sat through the conference listening attentively to each word said by the speaker. I was quite inspired by the talk and was all out to do the internship. It was on door-to-door book selling in the South of US. And the income is worthwhile. But then again we need a car and i was wondering where am i to get that amount of money to purchase a car??? So i am still undecided though the talk was really motivating. Iam yet to talk to my parents but i don’t want to burden them. I am sure that if i told them that i am all out to do it and i need a car, they will definitely find the means to give me the money. But i know the situation at home so i am very reluctant to burden them. So yea, this is something i have to think about.

  In a Vietnamese Restaurant

Celebrating a friend’s birthday in the hotel room

WoMen…

She does everything to make him happy
or at least she tries
But she’s a no one to him…
She wants to be owned and feel secured
but scared to voice out her opinions
because she’s a no one to him…
She keeps everything inside so he won’t get hurt
She wants to tell him so many things
But has to hide it inside…
She’s scared her words will pierce his heart
She wants to spend each second with him
Wants to feel his love, care and respect but she cant
because she’s a no one to him…
She wants to yell, scream and tell him her feelings
But he’s going to run a mile when he hears it!!

So what is she do?
Sit in her claustrophobic room and feel the love
surge through the walls???

Life’s a battle, be a wise player or die trying!!

Spring Break

Wow Spring break can get awful when you are left all alone in a room doing nothing!! I though i could survive my holidays by being alone but it’s only the middle of the week and i feel so lethargic and lonely. Most of my friends are out of town. I have been trying to sit and occupy myself with readings, internet, watching movies and also doing my blog. But there are times, i just want to go out and break free!! But there is no one around. So i though maybe by writing my feelings and not screaming out aloud I’ll feel much better . Hopefully things get better and i do not get depressed heheheh…

EnOuGh..

I love you enough to fight for you

compromise for you and sacrifice

myself for you if need be.

Enough to miss you incredibly when

we are apart, no matter what length

of time it’s for and regardless of the distance.

Enough to believe in our relationship

to stand by it through the worst

of times, to have faith in our

strength as a couple, and to never give up on us.

Enough to spend the rest of my life

with you, be there for you when you

need or want me and never, ever

want to leave you or live without you.

I love you this much…

Life at it’s worst.

I know things have changed. I can feel the difference surge through my skin. You seem so distant and i’m wondering why. You rarely want to spend time or talk to me. You give excuses that you have too much running in your head. I am busy too. I have four exams this week but i still put aside some time for you. Maybe i’m taking it all the wrong way, but when you call i can sense it in your voice. The coldness just pierces through my heart. But i still stand strong because my goal here is to study and get a degree. So for now i’ll let you go your way and run my life. I know deep down, you’ll realize my worth one day. I have done my best in making you happy. If this is not enough that i am left speechless! I would have done certain things to hurt you but it was not in my control. It happens because our culture clashes. We are just two different beings from two very different worlds. But you said that things will work out and that i should follow my heart. I guess you don’t practice what you preach. Or maybe there are just too many fishes in the sea that you cant afford to commit. Well, i have no say. All i can say is, “if you can’t handle me at my worst then you don’t deserve me at my best”!